2 weeks still to go and I’m already having dreams about the trip! I dream a lot. Well ok, everyone does, but I remember a lot of my dreams. In fact, I have saved the world on numerous occasions, turned into a vampire, have been a wolf, have shot zombies, flown to school, and the list goes on and on. I have really terrible nightmares sometimes too. But as I keep growing older it seems my saving the world days are slowly passing away and I have normal, life related dreams. Last night was one of those times.
At least my kid heart is still present because the plane trip was awesome! Somehow I was in a plane towards the front where I could see everything outside, except what was under me (like the chairs, the floor of the plane, etc). It was a small plane too, not many people. And the pilot decided to have some fun so he took up soaring up, then would go back down and glide so close to the roads that the belly of the plan just barely missed the pavement. Then back up into the sky we went. I loved it, but not many other passengers did.
Skip ahead to the next airport where we make our transfer. We are approaching customs when someone in my group receives a phone call. The trip has been called off!! Someone couldn’t make it, or something had gone wrong, but all I knew was that I wasn’t going after all. Next thing I remember was being devastated on the short trip back. I returned, not to my home, but a mix between my old college campus and a local park. I walked around a little, ignoring the people, and eventually stopped and just flat out sobbed. It was awful.
And the worst part was, I woke up shortly after that. It took me a few seconds to get past the feelings of sorrow and realize that none of it had happened, but it apparently took its toll on my mood for the day. I’ve been more nervous than excited, when most days its usually a mix of both, or even more excited.
Needless to say, I spent my walk talking with God and expressing my nervous feelings. Peace has returned, though I would ask all of you today to continue to pray for me, and especially to calm my nerves.
Thanks a bunch and I hope you enjoyed the rendition of my crazy dream. 🙂